Tuesday, April 16, 2024

Jetlag

 04/17/24 02:02 p.m.

"I love the land more than my country. I love the earth more than the flag." Jetlag - Luke Wallace

I don't know this country enough but why do I feel a sense of belonging? There is an inherent want for me to understand this country, the land, and the people better. I am not sure why but I can feel it within my bones.

Maybe one day I want to put myself and root myself in this Southeast Asian land, it doesn't matter where exactly I am but somewhere here or there. To me, the borders and boundaries are not as distinct as we see on maps.

Regardless, this is an interesting thought. I think it is time for me to connect with like-minded individuals beyond where I am, starting with my birth country. It could be an interesting back-to-my-roots journey.

Rookie for life,
Hui

Monday, April 15, 2024

Moments I think about all the time

These are moments that I think about all the time:

1. The trip out of BKK - Forbes was driving. Claire, Swati, and Chesed were singing softly while it started drizzling outside. I took the window seat and slept through almost the entire way. We arrived at this cafe, it was a beautiful one near the hillside. The view was insane as we overlooked the entire roadway towards the cafe. The clouds felt within reach and the sky was our only limit.

2. The local restaurant near Lance's uncle's condo - we had som tam there after an intense gymming session. The spices there hit the hardest and I will never forget how bad it was (but in a good way). Phet maak.

3. The beancurd place - Forbes brought us to eat at this Thai traditional dessert place. But what all of the customers were hooked on was the female volleyball game that was screening. It was super intense and the small spot erupted with cheers or disappointment with every point scored and lost. My first time in BKK was for football and I left that trip with nothing but deep admiration for the athleticism and determination that the Female Thai players have at such a young age. 

4. Dolphins - Dolphins came and greeted us in the boat when we were island hopping around Phuket with S46. I prayed and hoped to catch a glimpse of them that day. It was almost as though they heard my prayers and appeared. I will never forget that moment.

5. The cold air - Huey, Xiao Yan, and I took a long stroll all the way out from the lodge. Though we were seriously disturbed with flies, the cold air wrapped us all around. But, the air became warmer as the sun started to creep out. It was a warm embrace as I took in everything that Nature had to give.

6. 5 odd kites - the rest went to do either kayaking or trucking, while the locals and I decided to take a bike ride instead. We cycled past the dam and saw everything as much as we wanted to. We plopped ourselves at the roadside to watch the sunset, with 5 odd kites flying right above us. The air felt clean and it was a constant slap in my face.

7. Peppa Pig - I was really happy when I was around the children and Youths I met in Vietnam. If anything, I hope to be their joy and sunshine for a day. I told myself that. And I am super glad I was. The hospitality that I received when the cooks heard that I was vegetarian was beyond me. I kept trying to convince them that what they cooked was more than enough for me. But it was the one in the wheelchair for me. She was a joy to be around and she was indeed, the big sister of the entire group. She took care of everyone and she also wanted to take care of me. She gifted me a Peppa Pig and it is still with me till today. One day, I will return with the Peppa Pig with me. 

8. Skipping around Benjakitti Park - I loved spending my time just walking and skipping around Benjakitti with one earbud plugged in. The view, the sky, the quaint silence in the morning and late evenings. I never finished the walk between Benjakitti and Lumphini Park but I do intend to soon.

Will add on when these moments come...

Saturday, April 13, 2024

March/April 2024

04/13/24 09:20 p.m.

It has been a wild 2 months to say the very least. While I am contented with where I am right now, I know that what I have right now did not come easy. I always believe that my life thus far has always humbled me as a person. I am such a living embodiment of "一分耕耘,一份收获" and I have never doubted that. In fact, time and time again, different experiences that I went through forced me to face this reality. If I ever get to taste any level of success, it would require buckets of hardwork, tears, and sweat. In hindsight, the only thing I would have wanted to improve on is having proper time management so I do not need to completely squeeze myself dry of exercising and socialising with friends.


This week is my last week in EI and it is the week I managed to receive feedback from the people whom I worked with. And of course, there was a mix of "you did well in..." and "what could have been better is...". I was genuinely touched by some of the feedback, but they just fuelled my motivation to want to be better and strive better at value-adding more to the team and of course, to the broader purpose and impact our organization stands for. 

I am excited to start as a full-time analyst and embark on this journey of self-development. There are so many things I do not understand and know yet. But, I hope to figure things out while I am at this pivotal stage of my life. I came so long and so far. Right now, I am really reaching the end of my 16 years of education. Of course, learning will never stop - it cannot stop and must not stop for me. The better I get at what I do, the more in depth I know what I know, the more beneficial it will be for you, Earth. For that, I will go faster, do more, and protect as much as I can.

I hope one day, I can look back and truly say that I have done what I can, given what I have. I hope the clients I support would be empowered to do the right things for our shared land. I hope I would be able to go at full throttle with the support of my loved ones, especially cw. But for now, I know I need get over the immediate tasks. As much as I would want to procrastinate, I know there are things that need to be done and I need to just get through this.

There are plenty of things to do so I will get started now!

Rookie for life,
Hui