About Time

07/07/23 07:03 p.m.

It was as though everything would work out at the end of the day. Everything, with the twists and turns, would end up being in my favour. Devina reminded me of the importance of having good intentions. "No matter what, with good intentions, the world would reward you. Remember to stay hopeful and believe in yourself."

Every time I run around the school nearby, I will run past the roadside trees. I wonder to myself how can I fix the situation and minimize our company's impact on forestry. I suppose you heard me, and you tried to help me. Through the countless obstacles that I faced, I always thought they were thrown at me by problematic people and people who are trying to make things difficult. After reading the book 'Mindset' by Dr Carol S. Dweck and 'How to win friends and influence people' by Dale Carnegie, I started shifting from "Why do I need to solve this" to "What can I learn from this problem". This shift was important, only because it marked my change from a fixed mindset to a growth mindset. And that probably changed many things for me. Project implementation picked up speed and we seized the moment the golden opportunity came knocking on our door. Furthermore, our alternative proposal might be a more refined and sustainable option than our previous iterations. 

The week before I left for BKK, I was super busy, averaging 5 meetings per day. There was a lot that needs to be done for different projects and tasks ranging from regional to local. After BKK, I manage to pick up 60% of my speed after 2 days of disorientation and restlessness. A lot of progress was made yesterday when I was on-site and I was really glad that everything seems to be moving forward & is unstuck. 

I have only 3 weeks left and I really hope that I complete the final sprint in the most impactful way. All of them questioned the sustainability of my projects - fair enough, they did not want me to waste my effort and time on things like these. My response to them is always the same. I will always be responsible for my projects, no matter where I am. So, to ensure that my projects would be the most successful:

1. I will need to make sure the company has committed just enough to not revert to old practices.
2. I will need to provide a proper handover to my colleagues.
3. I will need to ensure proper documentation is saved in my SharePoint that is open and accessible to everyone relevant.

If I did all of these, I will leave my internship programme with no regrets and with the confidence that I have done what I promised and committed to do. This is what justice would look like for me. 

Today, I made a really tough decision. I suppose I really considered my constraints well and decided to do what was right based on the contractual terms that I agreed upon and chose to comply with back then. I need to stick with what I need to do at the end of the day. But it still hurts. I hope I will not need to go through this anymore or put myself in such a situation.

I will have to end my internship with a beautiful bang (with fireworks). And there are so many things coming up this month and I will have 2 weeks to rest before school starts. I will do my best as always and this time round, I want to be as focused as I can ever be while trying to balance school with sports and external projects.

Rookie for life,

Hui