March started off beautiful but ended off in an unexpected nightmare.
I had the opportunity to fly to Hong Kong at the end of the month to attend the One Earth Summit 2025. It was a great platform for me to interact with Youths from ASEAN, Hong Kong SAR, and Mainland China. It is almost rare to have such collision of Eastern with the Southeast Asian perspectives. What I took away the most is for sure the connections that I have made from the Summit. This is one of the most diverse bunch of attendees, with highly ambitious and successful (I would say) individuals that are pretty much best-in-class in what they do in their own field. You can observe the sheer diligence and strength to continue what they are doing in some of them and that inspires me. I took the chance to meet up with one of our clients and developers - one that I would call my senior. I deeply respect the work that he does and what he stands for. I hope that one day I could embody the spirit of collaboration and "making things work".
The political instability and regulatory uncertainty sitting in some Asian countries have truly killed me. This risk stabbed me continuously - no break. I could point my fingers at anything but nothing at all. In hindsight, March is nothing as compared to April. I absolutely detest April already.
I realised how much life has been testing me lately. It has been throwing me lemons throughout since the start of the year until now. The degree of sadness I have been experiencing has reached rock bottom. But, it was when I realised that there is indeed hell below rock bottom - just when you though the lowest low couldn't get lower, it did.
Watching my team shrink to nothingness. Rebuilding the team, only to watch it all fall apart again. Holding on to fond memories of the brilliant soul I work closely with. Struggling with the miscellaneous projects that were left behind. All while maintaining my professionalism and exhibiting what I deem as the highest standards of advisory, in line or against the tides. Up-keeping my duties as a daughter, a role model to my brother, a strong pillar of support to my sister who is getting through her own transition. Keeping up with the progress and expansion of my start-up without loosening too much. Deep-seated struggles in crafting out what LSEA and creating something that would be relevant and helpful to these Youth Organizations. Not meeting expectations of clients/developers whom I have built strong ties with. Strong feeling of embarrassment and the shame that comes with the change in Group strategy. Burdened emotions of not being able to secure additional funding and off-take for WP.
I feel so emotionally burdened but am so seated at my own life drama. Like bring me my own set of popcorn and coke zero please.
Anyways, life sucks and I just need to be more resilient, to be a bit tougher than yesterday, and try to figure out my plan next and a strategy for every single piece of the pie. I just need to be clear about what I think is purposeful and the time and effort spent will be worth the beauty at the end.
I was excited for 2025, overly excited actually (in hindsight). But 4 months in, I think I need to re-evaluate lol.
I need an overdose of dopamine to get through the month of April, after being absolutely slayed by March.
Hui
The political instability and regulatory uncertainty sitting in some Asian countries have truly killed me. This risk stabbed me continuously - no break. I could point my fingers at anything but nothing at all. In hindsight, March is nothing as compared to April. I absolutely detest April already.
I realised how much life has been testing me lately. It has been throwing me lemons throughout since the start of the year until now. The degree of sadness I have been experiencing has reached rock bottom. But, it was when I realised that there is indeed hell below rock bottom - just when you though the lowest low couldn't get lower, it did.
Watching my team shrink to nothingness. Rebuilding the team, only to watch it all fall apart again. Holding on to fond memories of the brilliant soul I work closely with. Struggling with the miscellaneous projects that were left behind. All while maintaining my professionalism and exhibiting what I deem as the highest standards of advisory, in line or against the tides. Up-keeping my duties as a daughter, a role model to my brother, a strong pillar of support to my sister who is getting through her own transition. Keeping up with the progress and expansion of my start-up without loosening too much. Deep-seated struggles in crafting out what LSEA and creating something that would be relevant and helpful to these Youth Organizations. Not meeting expectations of clients/developers whom I have built strong ties with. Strong feeling of embarrassment and the shame that comes with the change in Group strategy. Burdened emotions of not being able to secure additional funding and off-take for WP.
I feel so emotionally burdened but am so seated at my own life drama. Like bring me my own set of popcorn and coke zero please.
Anyways, life sucks and I just need to be more resilient, to be a bit tougher than yesterday, and try to figure out my plan next and a strategy for every single piece of the pie. I just need to be clear about what I think is purposeful and the time and effort spent will be worth the beauty at the end.
I was excited for 2025, overly excited actually (in hindsight). But 4 months in, I think I need to re-evaluate lol.
I need an overdose of dopamine to get through the month of April, after being absolutely slayed by March.
Hui
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